Sometines I wonder how this brain of mine made it past the genetic roadblocks of evolution, surely too much thinking and contemplating couldn’t have been useful in a world of a fast-attack tigers and tree-sized sloths, but maybe it was us smart apes that tricked the dopes into being sloth snacks and therefore cleaned up with the … See! There I go again.

Seems that most of us operate at the reptile level, and I am no exception, just that this moon-pondering mind has proven itself to be too much a deficit. I’ve been lately experimenting with not letting it be so. Which is why you’re reading these words.

I can’t tell you if you’re bored with men. Boredom is a deeper condition than that. Boredom is the condition we suffer between bouts of excitement, right?

Some forms of excitement last longer than a fortnight, some last less.

I have more thoughts, but they will wait.

But yes, my brain is full, and just Won’t. Shut. Up. So full of ideas and thoughts that I can’t focus on any single one of them long enough to write more frequently.

And yes, I’m bored. But, is it boredom with men, or just boredom with trying to convince myself that I really want one around for longer than a fortnight?

The older I get, and the more settled into my life that I become, the more ambivalence I have about what kind of relationship (if any) I’m actually seeking out. And not knowing what you want is the surest route to never getting it.

You have a hard time connecting with guys on your level because you spend too much time up in your head. I have the same problem. I can’t turn off this brain. It’s full of thoughts and comments and desires and hauntings, all things that I’ve (here in Chicago) had to restrain for so much of my life. That’s me.

You’re the same.

I know this. You know this. Let’s discuss.

Neways getting to this email with this dude … who clearly you need to through off the nearest bridge.

Firstly he is basically saying that he sees no excitement in life. I mean has be gone skydiving, or hiking or whatever.

You know that would be have good if he said the same thing and then ended it with … life is really about pushing your limits, doing things you have never done before and experiencing life to its fullest.

But he seems to see the glass as half empty as opposed to half full.

In regards to the sex thing? Yeh well sure it can be amazing .. but if he thinks thats all that life can offer then he needs to get a life.

I say ditch him. You can get better.

Hot Alpha Female

http://www.hotalphafemale.blogspot.com

Someone said this to me once.

“yes everyone loves a challenge. But not everyone is challenging” – this guy falls in this category